i just read my private blog that i kept since last year. and i swear i was almost close to tears. i felt the feeling of sadness as i read my use of vulgarities, all referring to my hatred for you. love, hate, jealousy, all emotions mixed into one. i got reminded of how hurt i got last year, how much pain was inflicted on me. did you really mean to do all those things to hurt me last year? i'm sorry. life was more enjoyable back then. and there i was complaining about how horrible my life was, ranting and ranting all the vugarities i could think of, without appreciating anything i had. i never took the time to sit down and appreciate life as it was. and now, look at what happened to me. i guess everything i'm getting now, i deserve every single taste of bitterness of it. i read about how much hatred i had for you, and it hurt so much reading it. i never really got to appreciate how enjoyable and carefree my life was, and now, everything changed.

i guess life is a test. and each time you overcome a test, another test comes in your way. and all you can do is to overcome each test that is thrown into your face, and then be satisifed with what you achieved when you sit down and reflect back everything you have done. i guess its these tests that you face that makes you grow stronger and wiser each time.

yes, i'll overcome this. i'm strong, i can do this. i'll come to prove you wrong, i will. believe me, just you wait. and after all of this is over, i'll be proud of myself for what i've achieved.
and even if i don't, i won't carry any regrets at all.



who am i kidding.


yesterday's library outing(?) with girlfriend was LOVES(: its been awhile since i've actually got to spend time with girlfriend. and me and sya were just practically high the whole time. we were being guai and stayed back to do our maths homework.(only because we were going to be demerited if we didn't) then we went to jurong library because sya wanted to borrow this book but it turned out that it wasn't there. HAHA. but it was really nice with girlfriend. (((:
babe, i'm so proud of you and i'm so glad that you're much happier now. i love you(:

then the great day was just ruined by 2 HOURS of freaking maths. imagine that, having to crack my head for 2 hours, all for maths. i tell you, my brain is going to be damaged my numbers soon. HEHH.







you bitch.

(4:11 PM)